...And over, and over.

its really been a while since my last journal post, and some of you were wondering how things were going.

well as it stands now, school or at least parts of it are lost causes. I couldn't pull my grades up, and now there is no longer enough time/marks left in the year. I am going to stay with it though. I could just run into the miracle of aceing everything between now and the end of the term (but that would mean strait 100%, so I doubt it) But I feel like a cant really do anything right lately, and general arrogant people at school arn't helping. Sadly During the last two monthes I got suspended for fighting.. I got fed up with someone trying to make themselves look big, and I wouldn't take it. (it was also someone I considered a Freind. A mistake I wont make twice) The sad part is I feel like I'm on the verge of snapping again, only this time it will be alot worce than a single punch in the shoulder. Oh but wait, it gets better. The school has now taken to sending letters to my parents, telling them I'm a failure at life.... My dad diddn't take it too well. but I'm at a loss as to what to do. I can't focus, I spend too much energy on situational awerness, and because I need to know exactly whats going on at any time ( 'cause attack con come from any time at any place) I find it hard to focus on my work... I feel like I've gone, Or I have been for a very long time. Simply put things are really depressing lately, and the easiest way to tell im depressed is when I play My music out loud... and I just got a sterio in my room.

on the art front I havn't been able to get much done, the whole not allowed fun in any form bit. But in the short bits of spare time I have had, I've been working on something BIG. Also I've been making some concept sketches for my webcomic which I will hopefully post later this week

Speaking of which, Ive really been thinking Runner through. I may not start it until or after I Post Seccondary. My schooling must come first, and doing a twice weekly webcomic would definetly hamper things... Also, for relegious reasons I litteraly wont be here for two years, so... Im still considering it.

anyways thats it for me.